So today, as I was running around town doing business stuff, I realised
-my skirt was ripped, slightly in the back, hemline was partially detached and dragging
- I also realised that this happened last time I wore it, last week sometime, and cant believe I had forgotten about it and not noticed when I put it on
- I saw heaps of tourists-kiwis by the looks, all dressed up in their jayjays dresses, glassons steel rimmed big fly -eyed glasses and their bling bling
and I thought to myself
- when In the last 5 years did I stop dressing up??What the heck happened to me!?
I used to like wearing pretty dresses and matching earings etc etc, I used to keep up with movies and music...
at some point, I guess this all become less important to me. is this what they mean by the good ol saying - you get married and you let go???
hmmm seems to me an easy trap to fall into! My attire today was based purely on what was there and not in the wash, vaguley matched, can cover up my hairy legs...and looks just ok...no longer interested in the brand names and materials and the hem lines and the cuts...oh no...im really turning into a nana. At some point in the last 6 years, I decided to wear less and less jewellary and it has now become a habbit. I think it all stemmed from being uncomfortable in the line of work I did, appearing to take interest in looking sparkly and nice- who was I trying to impress?? the overworked radiologist interested only in whether or not your bare-chested position was correct for the upcoming xray shoot to see if you have pneumonia?? the patient next door spewing his guts out or the one down the ward losing a battle to some fatal disease?? thats when I stopped. I couldnt bring myself to paint my nails even, or put on blusher or anything because in the scope of everything I was doing, it was just wrong.OF all the things I should be thinking of and doing, worrying about my looks was least priority on my list of worrisome things. So I stopped, maybe just a plain pair of hoops , my watch and wedding rings, that was it. Now, a whole dresser full of pendants, bracelets and earings, some bought some gifted....and I cant think of anywhere to wear it all too...but Dammit I need to beef up this look because Ill be dammed if someone is saying about me "look at her, shes really let herself go"lol!!..
the only problem i can see with this plan is- if i start wearing jewellery, I think people in my 1 mile radius will think Im rich-(( because NONE of them wear jewellery (except a wedding ring maybe) lucky if theyve got shoes on even!)) and all come and ask for small loans...no, for my own peice of mind, i think ill save the bling bling for that special occassion, in Apia somewhere, far away from the eyes of my neighbours whose motto apparently, as I was so rudely told one day while declining yet another small loan request "in Samoa (you mean this village in Savaii) when you need money, you ask your neighbour".....
ok, please let me know if anyone else has ever heard of this motto??Cos dammit- I want some money so NEIGHBOURS_ show ME da money please!!!lol!
anyways, as always, just a short random one
One of my guests just mentioned (theyve been in Sa for 6 weeks) that hes counted more the 30 consecutive days of rain since arriving! thats why its called the 'rainy season' i guess!
this is my yard
These are my feet
Theyve been dirty most of the last 8hrs Ive been runing around, washed a zillion times...but still...remain mud clad:) I really have let go!!hehe!
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